In 2013 I started this blog, it has been filled with encouragement, interviews, pain, gain,music, recipes and God thoughts. Over the last couple of years, there has not been as many post. I sort of lost myself in early spring of 2017. If you have followed my blog you know that I walked through a divorce after experiencing domestic violence for a year. I have been healing, restoring and growing over the last almost 3 years. So today I write this blog to share with you that I believe in 2020 all that was lost and became blurry in my life is being perfected and restored.
I opened my cabinet in my bathroom yesterday where I had my 2019 goals typed on a piece of paper. I forgot it was in there, and brought it out to see where I was at with them. I realized I had lost some focus, but I also realized that God was bringing all of those into my vision again. God has been working on me in some areas so that the goals I had written down could become realities. I could have looked at them and felt like a failure, but instead I decided to look at them through God’s eyes which have 2020 vision. God’s eyes see perfection because they SEE Jesus Christ when they SEE us.
When I lost myself and my vision for my life in 2017 I was traveling and doing ministry, blogging, doing podcast, radio and so much. All of those things I just mentioned are part of who I am and what I love. When my heart was broken, those things also seemed to have shattered. I could not figure out how to piece them back together. I could not figure out how I was going to travel and do ministry because you see, I always traveled with someone else. I could not seem to get a groove going for my KIJS show, blogging or podcast. I would see a glimpse of that desire and try to do those things, then I would get distracted with my pain. But God never left me in my pain and the distractions have been healing one by one.
Now that we are ending another year and entering into 2020, I believe God told me that this will be my year of perfection. No not being perfect… I believe He is perfecting those things that concern me. Psalm 138:8! I believe the brokenness that I experienced, that the very last little pieces are being mended and put back into their place and sealed by God’s love. The vision that was given to me in 2010 for ministry, the passion to encourage others to dream through my blogs and interviews in 2013 and even all the childhood dreams, are all coming into perfected 2020 clear vision.
God’s word says He takes all things and turns them around for His good and glory. The mess I lived off and on in my past is now my message of God’s love, healing, restoration, sustaining hand and so on. I have wondered where to start, how to get back to the passions in my heart, God says start now, start today. So my goal is to take one day at a time, one opportunity at a time and walk into 2020 with an overwhelming excitement. Doors of opportunity have already began to open up. Last month I was asked to share a little of my story at a fundraiser. The two minutes I had to share opened a door to many things to come. In early 2020 I will be traveling with our Community Crisis Center and working with churches to bring awareness to domestic violence and make churches a safe place for both victims and hurting people who find themselves hurting others. I also believe that this door that opened will open up more and more doors.
So my advice to you, is no matter what all the years of the past has brought you, that you do not let go of hope, love, peace, healing and your vision and dreams. Let 2020 be your year of perfected vision. Ask Him to perfect all that concerns you!
Dream Catcher 3:20
Cassie Gilman
