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Morning Rawness
Some tell me I shouldn’t care anymore! Some say your better off! Some say I never should have! For those who truly know me, you know how deeply I love, how I go in and give all I can until I lose myself in a person.
They say time heals but I say GOD HEALS. Time only tells how far along in that healing I am.
This is a rough week for me. See I always have hope in me. I always have wild imaginations that the total disaster will turn into a huge walking testimony somehow. AND IT ALWAYS WILL. Just not always the way we think it will.
A word of advice to those helping someone overcome trauma, loss, hurt of any kind. Don’t try dismissing their emotions with cliche comments. People heal in their own time and their own ways. If they don’t feel they can be honest with those around them, they will close off and fake it. That is not healthy in anyway. We may think we are making them feel better when we say our little easily thrown out words BUT we are not. Unfortunately I’ve said all these things to others. I never knew how it made them feel. I did it because their pain made me uncomfortable because I didn’t understand. I am finding it is way easier to say “I don’t have a clue what you must be feeling but I love you and I’m here for you”.
So I’m being honest today with y’all. I’m experiencing a new level of emotions and a new level of healing. I’ve felt angry over the last few days at myself for having any feelings about certain areas at all. But I decided to embrace them so I can finish my healing process.
There are so many people my story will impact so they can heal as well. So onward I go! I won’t fake it till I make it. I will process it and allow God to finish the work HE started.
#mymorningrawness
Cassie Gilman
Week 4~RUTH
I have always been intrigued with Ruth. Ruth lost her husband, her brother in laws and father in law all at once. I can not imagine the grief she was feeling. In times of grief we naturally turn inward and maybe even somewhat selfish. It’s a survival technique much necessary at times. BUT NOT RUTH!
There came a moment of decision for Ruth; would she return to the familiar or go towards the unknown? Would she press on with the God she had been serving or return to false hope, false idols and emptiness because it was easier?
Ruth’s mother in law Naomi told her and the sister in laws to return back to their land. I find it interesting that the sister in laws said with their mouths, oh no we will stay with you! Hmmm we’re they only giving lip service? It only took two times of Naomi telling them “I have no sons for you to marry” then they were out!!! NOT RUTH!
Ruth oh how strong her faith in God had to be. Ruth told Naomi “I will go where you go”. I don’t know about you but I’m not sure I could have done that. I might have been thinking about the fact she basically said hey you will be single from now on… or the fact I had never been to this foreign place! Ruth knew no one but her mother in law. A mother in law who was bitter over the death of her sons and husband. Oh boy that had to be a depressing trip!!! Naomi even changed her name to mean bitter 😥 I probably would have ran to a more comfortable place. NOT RUTH
Ruth journeyed on and took care of Naomi. Ruth could have changed her name to bitterness, depressed, single for life, poor me… BUT NOT RUTH.
Ruth gets up one morning and says “hey I am going to the fields and hope for favor to clean up what’s left behind” ~Cassie’s paraphrasing lol
She starts picking up what’s left behind. I don’t think her intentions were to fund a husband. I believe her heart was servant hood. I believe she was doing what she knew to do in the natural to provide for her and Naomi. I believe she was picking herself up out of the dark places she was living in to find a reason to hope. She could have taken the easy way out and ran back to familiar!!! BUT NOT RUTH
So guess what happened!! The man who owned the fields was named Boaz and he noticed Ruth! He asked his crew who is this woman? They explained she was Naomi’s daughter in law and a widow.
Ruth did not approach Boaz…He went to Ruth!
“Boaz went over and said to Ruth, “Listen, my daughter. Stay right here with us when you gather grain; don’t go to any other fields. Stay right behind the young women working in my field. See which part of the field they are harvesting, and then follow them. I have warned the young men not to treat you roughly. And when you are thirsty, help yourself to the water they have drawn from the well.” Ruth fell at his feet and thanked him warmly. “What have I done to deserve such kindness?” she asked. “I am only a foreigner.” “Yes, I know,” Boaz replied. “But I also know about everything you have done for your mother-in-law since the death of your husband. I have heard how you left your father and mother and your own land to live here among complete strangers. May the Lord, the God of Israel, under whose wings you have come to take refuge, reward you fully for what you have done.””
Ruth 2:8-12 NLT
Ruth could have chased after him and begged him for food. Instead she labored in the fields and believed for favor. That was not overlooked. She could have said hey I am Naomi’s daughter in law, I heard there was a law here that a relative of my husband was suppose to marry me so I can have children and continue the linage. BUT NOT RUTH!
Ruth did the ordinary, everyday task of providing for Naomi and herself and trusted God! Here is what is amazing!
Because Ruth did not turn back to the easy road..
Because Ruth didn’t lay down in her loss
Because Ruth didn’t chase after the final outcome with out doing the daily task first
Because she didn’t try to run ahead of God and force things to happen
God put her exactly where she needed to be at the exact time she needed to be there! Boaz took notice of her! Boaz gave her favor, provision and grace. Boaz made her task become easier and showed her exactly where to work, where to be for food and water!!!
15 When Ruth went back to work again, Boaz ordered his young men, “Let her gather grain right among the sheaves without stopping her. 16 And pull out some heads of barley from the bundles and drop them on purpose for her. Let her pick them up, and don’t give her a hard time!”
17 So Ruth gathered barley there all day, and when she beat out the grain that evening, it filled an entire basket.[a]18 She carried it back into town and showed it to her mother-in-law. Ruth also gave her the roasted grain that was left over from her meal
THEN…..
The time came when Naomi brought up that law about the relative who could marry Ruth! She directed her to clean up, prepare for her BIG DREAM!! Her husband, her provision, her protection and PURPOSE. Ruth had to be scared of rejection. I would have said ummm nope you go ask him for me lol. BUT NOT RUTH!
Ruth did as she was directed. LONG STORY SHORT!!! She married the man of her dreams and fulfilled the call and purpose on her life. RUTH went from a foreigner to being in the direct line of Jesus lineage!! WOW!!!!!!
I would love it if you would read the book of Ruth this week and send me your thoughts on her life ♥️!!!
I’m all pumped up and excited this morning about life and ALL HE HAS FOR ME! Don’t settle for less than your BOAZ in life rather it’s a husband or a Dream! God wants the best for you!
Love you,
Cassie G
Drop your burdens and RUN to JESUS
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” ~ Matthew 11:28-30
One day I was so over loaded emotionally and mentally with life. I felt like I was being taken under by a heavy weight around my neck. Like I was carrying luggage filled with rocks and I was going to drown in life.
There was a period in my life where I was living in a situation that was not bringing me peace at all. I was under attack spiritually, mentally and physically. My Mommajo AKA Carol Hogner came for a visit one weekend. I was helping her carry in her luggage and she went to hug me, my hands were too full to just melt into that loving hug. I suddenly realized I was holding onto baggage that was keeping me from being embraced fully by loving parental arms. I dropped all the luggage on the ground and said, okay now I’m ready.
A year went by from this moment that happened in the physical, when God showed me my life in the spiritual. He took me back to that moment in my mind. I realized I was carrying too much baggage with me. It’s not easy to drop baggage 🧳 and walk or run in the other direction. We can start thinking about the value that it has served us to keep it. That very baggage might have provided protection from more rejection, pain, being let down and avoiding walking in an area we are called because of fear. So many reasons it’s hard to drop the burdens or baggage and RUN into HIS ARMS! OH BUT IT IS WELL WORTH IT! See our Father God will never ever LET US GO! He will give us a light load of peace, joy, comfort…
Below is a video with a song sang by Carol Hogner that came out of that baggage moment. Please take a few minutes to check it out.
Dream Catcher 3:20
Cassie Gilman
Mary Magdalene
This was our week 3 from the email list!
I was thinking about how so many things in our past hold us back from ALL HE HAS FOR US!
Mary Magdalene was a woman possessed by not 1 but 7 demons. She was known as someone insane. It only took ONE touch from His love to set her free.
Luke 8:2 New International Version (NIV
2 and also some women who had been cured of evil spirits and diseases: Mary (called Magdalene) from whom seven demons had come out;
I wonder when she was worshiping Jesus, ministering to His needs and sharing His resurrection was she thinking: oh I can not be doing this! I had 7 demons so I am not qualified.
Oh BUT she was!! Jesus qualified her just like you and I. The first one to declare His resurrection was Mary Magdalene!
John 20:1-18 New International Version (NIV)
The Empty Tomb
20 Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance. 2 So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don’t know where they have put him!”
Just like Mary Magdalene we have ALL been touched with Christ love! We have been set free from our own demons and issues. If we have issues remaining we know the ONE who will set us free!
Never give up! Never shut up from the truth! Never put up with the enemies lies!
Worship like Mary! Spread His love and resurrection power like Mary!
♥️♥️♥️♥️
Cassie G
