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Running C’s Favorite Recipe

At Running C Cattle Farm, they have a favorite recipe.

I have to say it’s my favorite food group lol. Well it’s a few groups combined but… I still think  spaghetti should have it’s very own food group.

Photo credit to Big Oven

This recipe will be one of your favorites as well.

I have to let you know that they only use RUNNING C Beef for this yummy recipe.

The recipe is found at this link https://www.bigoven.com/recipe/spaghetti-sauce-with-ground-beef-sausage/1311626

Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie Gilman ♥️

Fall Is On The Horizon

I am so very excited because we are at the middle of August now. That only means one thing to me… Well two lol. One my daughters birthday is coming up and FALL is on the horizon.

Fall is my absolute favorite season. I love the smell in the air of the leaves that are falling and decomposing. I know that sounds weird but I love it. I love being able to wear a hoodie. I maybe a hoodie junkie. A fall firepit is the best ever.

What else about fall do I love? Hmm. Football, chilli, fall festivals, the colors and so much more. My energy level rises way up. I told my sister the other day I couldnt wait until fall. She asked me why. When I told her that I have more energy in the fall she totally freaked lol. She already thinks I have way too much energy.

I went on a hike this last weekend and it was awesome. I want to go back this fall and see the drastic change in the area. ♥️

I feel like I am going into a fall season in my spiritual walk as well. I know there are somethings that will fall off and decompose in my life. This may sound like a painful season, but oh the spring season that will come down the road!

I know that I have deep rooted hurst and leftover trauma from my past. Those things that have caused hardness in me will begin to drop away. I will bloom again, stronger and even more beautiful than ever.

So I say BRING ON THE FALL!

I would love to hear a few of your favorite things about fall. Please leave me a comment and share yours thoughts.

Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie Gilman

What Is Friendship To You?

I have been thinking a lot about friendship lately. I find myself spending more time alone than ever in my life. I find myself longing for a deeper level of friendships than ever before, for new friendships as well. Yet I still find myself alone so much of the time.

I have to ask myself why am I choosing to be at home alone when I know so many people? I think it is because my view of friendship is not what the world has made it into. Friendship is more than a social media friend, it is more than an occasional hi, or text…

Friendship has many different levels in life, but the one I am longing for, the one I crave, looks different than the majority of what I see around me.

I have some great friends and very close life long friends in my life. What I am longing for is sometimes hindered by the different lifestyles others live or seasons they are in verses my season. Some are married, some are in relationships, some have different beliefs or lifestyles they live, that sometimes interferes with what I am longing for. Their schedules and mine may not line up. Maybe our finances are not the same level when it is time for a road trip and so I find myself going alone or not getting to go with them.

I have to say that if I could really show you an image of what I am looking for it is probably the Golden Girls lol. I want to laugh together, cry together, fight a little, make up a little but always stay loyal. I know I have those kinds of friendships for sure.

So what is it I am looking for? I am looking for new friendships to add to the ones I already have. See I have been closed off to new for a long time. I will try to open up and accept a new friendship but something inside me keeps them at a distance. I have been hurt by some very close friends in my life. Some whom I looked up to, who were more like family. It has put a distrust for people into my heart. It has been rooted so deeply that I have almost closed myself off inside when it comes to loving someone on that level.

I am starting to find myself longing again for closeness, deep conversation and a bond that is risk taking. I am starting to let go of some of the old to make room for the new.

Recently I realized that I have been holding onto a couple of people in my life for about 7-8 years too long. When we hold onto dead relationships and compare others to the hurt and damage left behind from those relationships, we leave no room for others.

I have always always held onto people to tight and too close and way too long. I am not perfect by any means. I have hurt others as well in my relationships, but I allow people who have damaged and broken me in ways to remain a major part of my heart. It is time to let go of those people. It is time to make room for others to make new memories with that far outweigh the pain and brokenness left behind.

How do I begin to make room for new friendships? I believe the very first step for me to take is allowing God to be my very best friend first and foremost. When I lean on His love, I will find healing and room for others in my life. When I lean on His love, I will find a safe place to allow others that are safe people into my life. I will no longer fear being taken advantage of, used, betrayed or rejected…

I will know that God directs my steps in every area of my life. Yes even in my friendships. I will know and trust that if someone is not healthy for me, He will guard my heart and I will not have to.

I am ready now to laugh with, travel with, cry with, dream with, build with and do life with those who God puts into my life from this day forward. I will allow God to place and remove those who do and do not belong in my inner circle. I will not choose people out of my own emptiness but out of His fullness of LOVE!

I will treasure the life long friendships I have no matter the amount of time I get with them. If it is a couple of hours floating in a pool, or sitting talking to them while they hang laundry and chase their precious grand baby, or maybe that rare moment they can take away from care-taking of their own son who is disabled from a tragic accident. I wont feel sorry for myself because their lives and mine don’t always match up at the same time. I will leave space for the new and treasure the years I have with them to come.

I am excited about what God is doing in my heart. I am excited for the room I am allowing Him to make in my heart for new friends.

What does friendship look like to you? I would love to hear from you? Just post a comment and lets do this life together.

For a look at healthy friendship examples and teaching click on link below

https://watch.tbn.tv/better-together

Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie Gilman

For sure NOT SOLO VACA

Wow I love my Jesus.

This morning I was sitting down to put my make up on before church, and I got all my answers.

For many many years, since I was a child… I have known God had great BIG plans for my life. Over the years of wrong mindsets, negative words and hurts that have built up, I have been scared to death of that BIG PLAN.

I have stepped out and dipped my toe and maybe even my foot in the water to try it out. You know like how you do when beginning of pool season starts???? Heck I may have even waded in part way and then freaked out and ran back out!

For so many years I have helped others with their call, goals and dreams. I pushed, pulled and promoted them anyway I could. But most of all I hid behind them. Say what you ask? See if I was helping them and not stepping out to my own big plans then I couldn’t really fail, stand out, or be responsible for that BIG PLAN.

Back to getting my answer. Well that’s it! LOL. this morning I heard it’s not the lifestyle and it’s not him your grieving. You no longer have anyone or anything to hide behind, that is what your grieving. It is your fear you are now having to face!

Even though what He showed me was hard truth it totally lifted something from me! I feel so rested and joyful.

I WILL DO IT EVEN IF I DO IT AFRAID!

I will DO THE NEXT RIGHT THING

I WILL DO IT DARING GREATLY!

I love all my encouraging podcast I listen to. Just sayin!!

If you need to read the process of all this on my vacation lol

https://crossgbackyardfarms.com/flying-solo-on-vaca/

Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie

Starting over daily

I am sitting on my front porch this morning watching the amazing creation of my Papa God come to life. Each morning the sun rises and a new day starts over. I was thinking about how we get that same opportunity each day as well. For that matter we get that with each breath we take in and breathe out.

See my Papa God gives us forgiveness that happened already on the cross. All we have to do is accept it. So when we recognize we just messed up and sinned against Him, we take a breath in and breathe out that past mistake. Then we walk right back into the knowing of being His child and being forgiven. I do not know about you but I have to be reminded of this all the time.

I am in a place in my life where I am trying to find my place again. Ultimately my place is with HIM, as His daughter and servant. However, finding my place in the community, in friends, in my purpose, in a role as a mom and grandmother is not always easy. But I get to start each day over as I discover what is not my place and what is.

See for several years my place was a codependent person, always doing for others so I would never lose them in my life. Doing for others is a good thing unless the reasoning behind it is not healthy. As time and hurts have went by, I have broken that cycle. Breaking this cycle left me at a place of discovering what is healthy and where my place is in life. So each day I start over with what I have learned and where I am at in this area. I have to let go of those years I was not aware of my sins and addictions. This is not easy when I still see the residual effects left on others lives from my past. This is when I have to trust my Papa is their Papa and He will heal what I broke.

I also spent at least 6 years in ministry, traveling almost every weekend with others. A life I felt so apart of, and loved. When my marriage fell apart I also lost that part of my life. I was a little wore out with it when I first came back to Oklahoma so a rest was great. As time has gone on, I have started missing that life. So here I am now trying to figure out where I belong in this part of my world. I am starting over each day with new opportunities and I just need to open my eyes and recognize them.

The last two years I have been finding myself again. Somedays I do not like the self I have found, other days I feel so strong. I have compromised somethings trying to fit in, trying to numb my pain and empty feelings. BUT each day I see that my Papa says it is a new day so you get to start over. Some of those days I end up repeating a past day, but each day I make the right choices I know He says way to go baby girl. The days I do not start over the right way, He says you will get it tomorrow, just DO NOT QUIT BABY GIRL!!!

SO WHATEVER YOU ARE STRUGGLING WITH I AM HERE TO TELL YOU

YOU GET TO START OVER! RIGHT NOW!

DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT STOP STARTING OVER AND WALKING IN HIS NEWNESS EACH SECOND, EACH MINUTE, EACH HOUR AND EACH DAY!!!!

Dreamcatcher 3:20

Eph 3:20

Dream wild dreams

Live wild lives for Him

Cassie Gilman