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Starting over daily

I am sitting on my front porch this morning watching the amazing creation of my Papa God come to life. Each morning the sun rises and a new day starts over. I was thinking about how we get that same opportunity each day as well. For that matter we get that with each breath we take in and breathe out.

See my Papa God gives us forgiveness that happened already on the cross. All we have to do is accept it. So when we recognize we just messed up and sinned against Him, we take a breath in and breathe out that past mistake. Then we walk right back into the knowing of being His child and being forgiven. I do not know about you but I have to be reminded of this all the time.

I am in a place in my life where I am trying to find my place again. Ultimately my place is with HIM, as His daughter and servant. However, finding my place in the community, in friends, in my purpose, in a role as a mom and grandmother is not always easy. But I get to start each day over as I discover what is not my place and what is.

See for several years my place was a codependent person, always doing for others so I would never lose them in my life. Doing for others is a good thing unless the reasoning behind it is not healthy. As time and hurts have went by, I have broken that cycle. Breaking this cycle left me at a place of discovering what is healthy and where my place is in life. So each day I start over with what I have learned and where I am at in this area. I have to let go of those years I was not aware of my sins and addictions. This is not easy when I still see the residual effects left on others lives from my past. This is when I have to trust my Papa is their Papa and He will heal what I broke.

I also spent at least 6 years in ministry, traveling almost every weekend with others. A life I felt so apart of, and loved. When my marriage fell apart I also lost that part of my life. I was a little wore out with it when I first came back to Oklahoma so a rest was great. As time has gone on, I have started missing that life. So here I am now trying to figure out where I belong in this part of my world. I am starting over each day with new opportunities and I just need to open my eyes and recognize them.

The last two years I have been finding myself again. Somedays I do not like the self I have found, other days I feel so strong. I have compromised somethings trying to fit in, trying to numb my pain and empty feelings. BUT each day I see that my Papa says it is a new day so you get to start over. Some of those days I end up repeating a past day, but each day I make the right choices I know He says way to go baby girl. The days I do not start over the right way, He says you will get it tomorrow, just DO NOT QUIT BABY GIRL!!!

SO WHATEVER YOU ARE STRUGGLING WITH I AM HERE TO TELL YOU

YOU GET TO START OVER! RIGHT NOW!

DO NOT I REPEAT DO NOT STOP STARTING OVER AND WALKING IN HIS NEWNESS EACH SECOND, EACH MINUTE, EACH HOUR AND EACH DAY!!!!

Dreamcatcher 3:20

Eph 3:20

Dream wild dreams

Live wild lives for Him

Cassie Gilman

Wisdom and Knowledge are God’s to Give

WOW I can not believe it is March of 2018 already.  I have been back in Oklahoma for a year this month.

I have learned a lot about myself in a year. Wisdom and Knowledge are God’s to Give and boy has He given it!

I have learned that it was okay to forgive myself for shortcomings as a mom, daughter, wife, and as God’s kid.  This is something I have to remind myself of often but such a freeing place to be.

I learned that my inability to SEE GODS LOVE for me aborted the ability to truly LOVE others the way God designed.

I have learned that nothing here on this earth really matters outside of God’s LOVE and the people He gave us to love.  The things that we make into a big deal in relationships are nothing compared to loving each other right here in the moment.

I have learned that once you speak words into existence you can never take them back.  God says life and death are in the tongue.  God also tells us I set before you life and death, NOW CHOOSE LIFE!

I have learned that I cared way too much what others think.  I allowed my circle to be way too wide and listened to voices that may have had good intentions but bottom line they are not God.

I have learned that each thought, each circumstances I find myself in God has faced it through His Son!  He gives me strength, mercy and grace to face it as well.

I learned that all I have to do is ask God!  One day recently He said to me; You have never asked me what I think and what I have to say about this.  It was an area that I had many thoughts on, others had many thoughts on but GOD HAD A WORD ON!  God’s word always trumps!

I learned that I in myself am not capable of any of this!!!  I am not capable of surviving life, loving myself, loving others or even loving God.

I learned that I can love beyond hurt, pain, and disappointment in myself and others.  How can a person do this?  God!  The word says GOD is LOVE! I am in God and He is in me so therefore I can love and I am LOVE.

I learned that I do not have to be angry to protect myself from being vulnerable.  God protects me with His loving arms.

I learned that I can love so much more than I thought possible even if it is never returned by human love.  God fills up what He gives me to pour out so I am never bankrupt!

I am sure there is much more that I have learned but these are the most significant areas in my life.

I wished I could take the knowledge I have learned this year and go back in time to some significant places, before specific people and have a redo.  I can not do this but what I can do is live in the now and love in the now!  I can say I am sorry and love beyond the past!

Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie Nations

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Dream Catcher 3:20

Cassie Nations