Morning Rawness
Some tell me I shouldn’t care anymore! Some say your better off! Some say I never should have! For those who truly know me, you know how deeply I love, how I go in and give all I can until I lose myself in a person.
They say time heals but I say GOD HEALS. Time only tells how far along in that healing I am.
This is a rough week for me. See I always have hope in me. I always have wild imaginations that the total disaster will turn into a huge walking testimony somehow. AND IT ALWAYS WILL. Just not always the way we think it will.
A word of advice to those helping someone overcome trauma, loss, hurt of any kind. Don’t try dismissing their emotions with cliche comments. People heal in their own time and their own ways. If they don’t feel they can be honest with those around them, they will close off and fake it. That is not healthy in anyway. We may think we are making them feel better when we say our little easily thrown out words BUT we are not. Unfortunately I’ve said all these things to others. I never knew how it made them feel. I did it because their pain made me uncomfortable because I didn’t understand. I am finding it is way easier to say “I don’t have a clue what you must be feeling but I love you and I’m here for you”.
So I’m being honest today with y’all. I’m experiencing a new level of emotions and a new level of healing. I’ve felt angry over the last few days at myself for having any feelings about certain areas at all. But I decided to embrace them so I can finish my healing process.
There are so many people my story will impact so they can heal as well. So onward I go! I won’t fake it till I make it. I will process it and allow God to finish the work HE started.
#mymorningrawness
Cassie Gilman
Week 4~RUTH
15 When Ruth went back to work again, Boaz ordered his young men, “Let her gather grain right among the sheaves without stopping her. 16 And pull out some heads of barley from the bundles and drop them on purpose for her. Let her pick them up, and don’t give her a hard time!”
17 So Ruth gathered barley there all day, and when she beat out the grain that evening, it filled an entire basket.[a]18 She carried it back into town and showed it to her mother-in-law. Ruth also gave her the roasted grain that was left over from her meal
Drop your burdens and RUN to JESUS
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” ~ Matthew 11:28-30
One day I was so over loaded emotionally and mentally with life. I felt like I was being taken under by a heavy weight around my neck. Like I was carrying luggage filled with rocks and I was going to drown in life.
There was a period in my life where I was living in a situation that was not bringing me peace at all. I was under attack spiritually, mentally and physically. My Mommajo AKA Carol Hogner came for a visit one weekend. I was helping her carry in her luggage and she went to hug me, my hands were too full to just melt into that loving hug. I suddenly realized I was holding onto baggage that was keeping me from being embraced fully by loving parental arms. I dropped all the luggage on the ground and said, okay now I’m ready.
A year went by from this moment that happened in the physical, when God showed me my life in the spiritual. He took me back to that moment in my mind. I realized I was carrying too much baggage with me. It’s not easy to drop baggage 🧳 and walk or run in the other direction. We can start thinking about the value that it has served us to keep it. That very baggage might have provided protection from more rejection, pain, being let down and avoiding walking in an area we are called because of fear. So many reasons it’s hard to drop the burdens or baggage and RUN into HIS ARMS! OH BUT IT IS WELL WORTH IT! See our Father God will never ever LET US GO! He will give us a light load of peace, joy, comfort…
Below is a video with a song sang by Carol Hogner that came out of that baggage moment. Please take a few minutes to check it out.
Dream Catcher 3:20
Cassie Gilman
Mary Magdalene
This was our week 3 from the email list!
Luke 8:2 New International Version (NIV
2 and also some women who had been cured of evil spirits and diseases: Mary (called Magdalene) from whom seven demons had come out;