Sitting here looking at my memories on Facebook. Wow Gods brought me a long ways since 2017. I had planned a trip down to Texas to see my husband, in hopes of reconciliation of some kind. Then when the hurricane hit and flooded Houston it caused a shortage on fuel down there. I was not able to go. It sent things into another whirlwind of anger and strife. My head was spinning with grief and confusion.
I remember back to this season of my life. Many mornings, nights or maybe even just randomly in the middle of the day, being on my face crying so hard. I was grieving so hard that I didn’t even recognize my own voice or cries. It scared the heck out of me. I thought this grief would never end. There were moments I literally thought I was going to die from it.
Though my marriage was not restored, CASSIE was!
The grief didn’t stay. The tears didn’t stay. Now I still have moments of sadness and tears but nothing like the season I was in 3 years ago.
I have learned to be well ME!!!
I am still finding my way and BECOMING the CASSIE God created me to be.
It’s exciting It can be scary lol but It’s exciting
There are things happening that are great big BRAVE things in my life. I can’t wait to share them as they take place.
But most of all, the fact I didn’t quit is a great big BRAVE in my life.
Whatever your facing today, this time next year will not look the same.
I haven’t looked at the news in awhile. I try to scan past it on Facebook. This morning I checked in to make sure the rest of the world was still out there. I saw madness and darkness.
The world is getting darker by the day if not the hour. His word says it will do that but His Light in us will get brighter.
There is only one way for our light to get brighter and that’s filling up the lamp with the fuel source.
We have got to develop a deeper relationship with Him.
We want to fight the battles, be the light and the salt of the earth, but we skip the process that gives us the ability.
We have been discussing a lot of this as we fellowship together. So it has my heart going strong towards learning what the enemy is truly after and defeating him.
The enemies plan from day one has been to keep us from an intimate relationship with our Father God.
God came down and walked in the garden with Adam and Eve everyday. Then one day the enemy presented a short cut to “be like God.”
That shortcut to skip the fellowship and relationship and just take a bite of fruit.
What are we taking a bite of today? Facebook for a small word from a friend, a few second devotional on the run, a podcast preacher driving down the road to get our fix?
Today take time to fellowship with Him. Create your own garden to bask in His presence. Maybe it’s on your drive to work, on your front porch with coffee or in a hot bath. Talk to Him, listen to Him, worship Him and just sit with Him.
Videos are back up. We had a scare yesterday in the social media world. Peoples videos were disappearing from their wall. Here are some tips for y’all If your ministering, singing, promoting a product of any kind Always go live on your ministry or business page. Facebook has guidelines on your personal page that are way stricter. At any time they can take down your post, videos or even profile. Most of the time they let it pass and don’t do that. If one person reports you, they can shut you down. I am in social media classes and have heard giants in this world say they had their things deleted and had to start over. Post your written post to more than one social media platform. Post them on your websites, blogs, Twitter and whatever you have as a second option. Save your video to your device. There is an option to save it right before you hit post. Upload it to YouTube, post it on your websites and blogs. Post it again on all social media avenues. Re share your videos as often as you can. You can also save your previous Facebook videos from your computer. Download them and save. Then upload to a YouTube account. This is a YouTube video showing you steps to do this action. I thought about making my own but this is quicker. If you have questions please holler at me. I will do what I can to help. https://youtu.be/HJOUgC4I5yA
As y’all know we are finding ourself facing a situation in our Country and World that we have never faced before. A lot of unknowns, fears and obstacles. We do not know who or what to believe.
There is one thing I know and that is we CAN TRUST AND BELIEVE GOD.
I will tell you how I am dealing with all of this. There are moments I am not dealing well. I allow a thought to get out of control. I binge eat, I get angry, and I spiral out on some social media rant or vent to a friend. I could pretend I have it all together or I can be real and honest. So I’m going with real and honest.
Now I will not leave it at the negative side of things. Here is what I do when I find myself doing the things above. I stop and force my phone out of my hand and turn on Praise and worship music. I turn my alerts off on my phone. I will turn on a podcast that is funny or a sermon podcast.
I have been waking up every night with a feeling of “what will I find has happened while I was asleep?”. So I turn on my Bible app or Abide app that reads the Word to me
I have started cleaning projects and advice tips to help others out. Here is my latest one.
I have been watching my grandson to help give his parents a time out.
As of today, we have been told all non essential workers stay home. It’s yet to be determined if I am or am not included in essential workers. I clean homes. I create a safe and disinfected home for my clients. To them I am essential. However I also want to be safe and comply with this situation to get it under control.
These are thoughts I battle…
Am I carrying a life threatening virus to my clients homes or home to my family?
I am responsible for others lives in this job
If I don’t work I will have nothing because I am self employed and there is no unemployment for me or grants for me available
I need someone to make this official and make a mandatory demand so I am not carrying the weight of this decision. Stop giving me recommendations and opinions and make it a flat out clear picture.
Then it’s back to God help me trust and hear You because no one here knows what we are doing!
then usually a repeat of all the above!
I told you I was going to be honest.
So when those thoughts are overwhelming me, it’s when I have to drown them out with worship, prayer and word.
I have been taking naps, taking vitamin C, B12 and using my diffuser at night with Thieves and Peppermint oils. These are all things I am doing to keep my immune system up.
Now my biggest issue is eating too much and too often because I am inside too often. I am praying the sun is out soon here and temps rising. I need to be walking and in the sun. I have a vitamin D deficiency and it has caused physical issues as well. Oh yeah I am taking Vitamin D and Turmeric.
I have a Bible app and I look up verses on Fear, Peace, Provision and read those. I share with others what He is telling me. I am no different than anyone reading this blog. I have to fight the battle and remember He has already won the war!!
I would love to hear back from you. What verses are you standing on, what worship songs are you listening to, what projects are you doing?
Here is a list of mine.
Raise a Hallelujah song
Fear is a liar song
Psalms 91
Psalms 23
Cleaning out my fridge
Deep cleaning baseboards
Cleaning out cabinets and drawers
Gathering things to bless others
Binge watching funny shows like Golden Girls, Reba and Designing Women
Okay so I truly have no clue what day this is on challenge. I barely know what day it is lol. It was after noon before I realized it was Saint Patrick’s Day.
I have made a list of things we can do at home while this situation in our country is being contained. Hope y’all can find peace and enjoy your down time.
If you have board games and cards stashed away GET THEM OUT!
Get out the coloring books and crayons If you are out at all for supplies and can, run by a Dollar Tree you can purchase some there.
I saw some old fashion cards like go fish at Dollar Tree. They have cards to teach kids in the school supplies section as well.
Dominos stuck down in a junk drawer? Dig them out.
Those books you have been going to read that you have in a goodwill pile now… get them back out.
Get our recipe books and teach your kids or your self lol measurements and how to make a recipe
Teach a child how to skip Don’t have a child, skip yourself to lighten your heart and increase your heart rate
Draw a line on the side walk and play that old game we played as kids. Not sure the name lol NOT DOGE BALL, that’s just mean lol. You hit the back back and forth to each other for points
Shoot hoops, play HORSE
Play duck duck goose with your kids or Jump rope
Stay physical and don let depression take root. Don’t let fear take root either.
I’m getting myself a coloring book Find your inner child again!!!
Sing some VBS songs like Jesus loves me, This Little Light Of Mine, Oh what’s the one that says “if the devil doesn’t like it, he can sit on a tack” lol
These are just a few ideas I had. If you have any to share, I would love to hear them.
